...i pray

“God give me the grace to accept things I cannot change.”
-A Monsignor’s prayer, Angels and Demons

It has been a part of my prayer since giving up is almost at the edge.

At mid- twenty ..

I was apparently out of nowhere, lost in human space and amidst bewilderness. Somehow I have a plan in mind to spend some good time this weekend it’s just that it was not put in the planner seriously. Unavoidably here comes the day, my ever age-added day. And I was surprised to know that people closed to my heart and those whom I just met lately have lots of present and prepared for a dramatic dinner to celebrate my natal day. I got an apple iPod on the present though it’s not the latest one. iPod never enhanced or fascinated me at all but for reasons I will surely love and enjoy this one.

Their thoughtfulness and kindness reflects how other people disregarded and ignored our presence despite of being good -all I have to give- to them. It is overwhelming to know that lots of people cared and loved us the way we are. The feeling dominates one who dismisses us unreasonably. And having them around is a precursor to see that life shouldn’t be bound with just one point alone. Luckily, I am as fortunate as winning lottery. I am poured out with people with touch of sensitivity, elevating hope, never ending love and goodness and so their greatness inspired me much. Happiness is really within us to see. Love comes as it may not be in a way we have wished it to be but the most important thing to note is we are most love against one or two.

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My sincere thanks to all the greetings from you guys..

If ( and only if)

If I have met you rightly …
Would things between us never gone wrong?

If the world you have is just like mine…
Would you still be here by then, keeping the love alive?

If things started justly…
Would we able to go far, believing and holding unto one other?

If the face of time comes between us just fine…
Would things stayed well and years would never been to agony?
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If there’s a gift I’m longing for..
It’s you..

If there’s the best thing ever happened entire my whole life..
That’s you..

If there’s only one man left..
I opted to be you..

If there’s one whom I wanted to love..
Definitely YOU..
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And If only I wasn’t in deep slumber and wake up into the world of reality…then there would be no more illusions at all. (';')

Happy Easter!

Long way Lent is near the end. And I already found my Easter egg even before Easter Sunday comes.

A blessed Easter Triduum! And a Happy Easter as well!

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"Christ redeemed us all and gave perfect glory to God principally through his paschal mystery: dying he destroyed our death and rising he restored our life……” - Vatican Council II

Have a break

For ages it hasn’t been my hobby to have a cup of coffee/tea. I only drink milk but never go in fresh because taste of it isn’t good on my tummy. Adjusting to the weather I started sipping a cup each week and ended to two cups a day. Terrible! But I need to spend my day break over tea/chocolate to break the coldness. Afraid I am getting used to it and oh no crossing my fingers not to get addicted with it.

In fact I’m sober with tea while watching the Manny “Pacman” Pacquiao and Jose Manuel Marquez Rematch. We were screaming with every punch launched and ouch to the bleeding wounds. So far it worth all the screams, Pacquiao won the rematch by split decision from the judges.

Of course it wasn’t surprising to see the country’s gambling icon manong Chavit right behind Pacman but dear what was he doing there on the ring? Boosting political image or want to take the microphone and speak in behalf of Manny? But dare him not coz Manny speaks (accentuated) English already. (Ow ha! Say nyo?!!)

(photo originally uploaded by chico river)

On the other ring, ranked 5 in NBA Eastern Conference, Toronto Raptors is battling for the playoffs.

My March Madness

I have been on March madness since this month is approaching. My energy level nearly gets drained. I have been exhausted with the environmental situation plus emotional failure and all the defeats. All I want to happen is to be frozen along with the snow wishing much that the coming days would stop a while before my big day comes by then I will have some time to recuperate. But come to think of it how could winter end if days would pause a while? As then I will just let the day flow as it is.

I am now excited for the coming of spring because I am really sick to the extreme cold weather all months long. Walking gets tough due to the thick pile and mountains of snow on the sidewalk adding the chilly wind that almost crack my bones. I can’t enjoy much the weather because it makes me lazy with all the stuffs needed to wear from head down to feet. I’ve got enough.

Waiting for my big day I have no idea what would gonna happen and I don’t have any plan yet how to celebrate the day. Are there any surprises for me out there? Nor someone special would come along? Back? Haha..WISH!! Crazy thing I know but could that be my birthday wish? Please allow me just for once.. ahaha

Happy graduation bro!

Congratulations ading!
You made it but it’s not yet over. You are just heading into a beginning of greater responsibility, into a future of uncertainty, into this world of perplexity..may you make a good deal as you go on on your way. You made yourself a scholar since high school and I do believe you can go further as you go on your life’s journey. Make good. (manang is just around)

Women

International Women’s Day was celebrated on March 8 and it was not ended just for a day because we have the whole month as Women’s History Month, to honor women of their dreams and achievements. It’s almost always that women have the strongest yet quietest influence on us. They ably perform different great roles that make history. Indeed women always there with a smile, support or strength in the journey of life.

In celebration of Women’s History Month, I would like to post this lines which I received from a friend how women created by God so special. A part of the note says: It should be send to all men so they will understand about what a wonderful thing a woman is.

….a little boy grew up and became a
man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God and
when God got back to him,

He asked, "God, why do women cry so
easily?"

GOD answered...
"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to
carry the weight of the world, yet,
made her arms gentle enough to give
comfort...

I gave her a hardness that allows her
to keep going and take care of her
family and friends, even when everyone
else gives up, through sickness and
fatigue without complaining....

I gave her the inner strength to
endure childbirth and the rejection
that many times will come even from
her own children.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her
children under any and all
circumstances.

Even when her child has hurt her
badly.... She has the very special
power to make a child's boo-boo feel
better and to quell a teenager's
anxieties and fears....

I gave her strength to care for her
husband, despite faults, and I
fashioned her from his rib to protect
his heart....

I gave her wisdom to know that a good
husband never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her
resolve to stand beside him
unfalteringly....

For all of this hard work, I also gave
her a tear to shed. It is hers to use
whenever needed. It is her only
weakness.... When you see her cry, tell
her how much you love her, and all she
does for everyone, and even though she
may still cry, you will have made her
heart feel good.

She is special!"

I found this as affectionately factual dedication to all women. How fragile and sweet a woman is, that needs to be cared and loved for so gently. For all of us women, we are beyond special..may God bless us all.

A fallen former college classmate

Why have all those young men gone?

Last week I received a message from JM also a former classmate stating to pray for the soul of PO1 Joel Tabula because he’s been gone.

My heart beats fast upon reading the message, almost couldn't believe it if JM was only playing joke on me. But other side of my mind contradicts the other. I know him; he will never play things like that. I replied immediately asking what happened but I got no response until now. So I hurriedly went over to Google and there it was I found the answer.

Joel was found dead in his room when his gun fired accidentally. He failed to unload the last bullet of his 9mm service pistol before cleaning it. A rumor comes out when I communicated with another friend back home. JM might have a reason why my question stayed unanswered. Whatever the truth is, may Joel finds his final rest and may his soul go in peace.

Joel Tabula was a college classmate and has been a good one. He shares his ideas in Math. When we talked with him he never loses the friendly smile. Even without a word if happens that he passes you by still he wears the smile. I find him as jolly, responsible and intelligent guy. He entered PNP after passing the Board.

BSCE-UNP Batch 2004 conveys its utmost condolences to the family he left behind. Our batch felt sad of his early death, at 24 too young to die. He’s a year younger than us.