I'm REFRAIN

With all the things I do to keep all cardiac, glands, adrenals or hormones at work 60/24 and escape awhile from all good things that bound to kept in a lovely memory chest, just like the fine sand that slips down in an hour glass, memories are too -although they’re plenty rough- in a hurry volunteering to be at the picture..

And Jose Mari Chan best describe it in this song..

I look out and see the rain
As it falls on my window pane
And the music that’s in my heart
Is a sad refrain
Endless traffic of sounds and lights
Midst the glitter of neon lights
Still the music that’s in my heart
Is the same sad refrain

Memories of you follows everywhere I go
Down the high and by-ways of my days
Music of your laughter fills my every dream
Like a love song from long ago
Never ending streams of faces come and go
Million different people all around
No use searching for I’ll never find you there
For you are far beyond compare

Take a jet to hideaway, from the humdrum of everyday
Yet the music that’s in my heart is a sad refrain
Fluctuations in the market scene
Fill my Dow Jones with every beam
And the music that’s in my heart
Is the same sad refrain…

Lalalalalalalalalalala ('_')

when rain drops

Outside the rain begin again. We do have frequent downpour and windy summer here. Albeit am used to wet season back home it felt different to have rain around on summer days. It has been weeks that rained which is unusual to the season.

So to put myself in solace I keep repeating the old kiddie song, rain, rain go away, hoping it would really stop. Still the drop gets harder. I decided then to gaze for quite longer to the falling crystalline -like -rain. And before I knew it, I am being rushed to the altitude of nostalgia. I was caught unguarded. False hope envelopes the soul once more..yet just before letting myself fall again into dream without assurance here comes the wake up call...

Thanks FM radio for playing this momentarily...

..Just another lesson to be learned

Gotta move on and not lose faith

Just another obstacle to face

Live my life before it gets too late

I won't give up

I won't stay down

This is what life's worth living for

(Life's worth living for)

I still believe in love....

Lost (in you)

This Vancouver native heartthrob would be my latest favorite male artist. I was caught and trapped by his – having colds - kind of a voice. His songs make me feel love still lingers no matter how muddy the atmosphere is - giving an assurance I’m not lost or alone. (lol)

You may want to catch him in his third studio album, Call Me Irresponsible. And discover Michael's favorite love songs that make him weak in the knees as he talks about it in Chatelaine (Canada’s Women’s) magazine, November issue, in stores now.

..can't we try..??

“A SUCCESSFUL MARRIAGE REQUIRES FALLING IN LOVE MANY TIMES, ALWAYS WITH THE SAME PERSON.” – Mignon McLaughlin

I know that this line should be kept in closet yet. And more aware that I should be seeing myself first, hand and hand with my man as we both say we do. Inevitably, I am browsing lot of pages as how to keep a lasting relationship when I unexpectedly directed to this beautiful suggestive quote. It is apparently an enlightening memento to each of us when disaster rocks the boat of our love and tries to wreck couples' happy life.

Beforehand, in a philosophical conversation of not so close male friends I heard one saying; we never know or sure what this life we are living at the moment. And add that our existence in this planet could be just a big faking dream. That in other dimension of life we are tightly sleeping and might come a day we will woke up in a different world where we really belong.

It made me stop and think. In realization of that thought, it put me to a point of agreeing. Now if our presence is a dream then I wouldn’t like it to end. I love how it goes. Furthermore it has been good as fantasy. That is why before this illusive dream finally gets over this fat-headed heart of mine still chasing we can try harder. And would appeal..(again and again)

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside

Tonight I celebrate my love…

Who wouldn’t love Beauty and Beast? They are the perfect figure of ”contentment is found in goodness”.

Journeying in a shortly cheerful, wondrous, and fortunate yet hanging, indifferent, vague, and blurry years my heart still wants to celebrate and sing tonight. Though mine may not like a fairy tale which always had a happy ending no matter I hardly wish upon the star.

So I sing..

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
It seems the natural thing to do

Tonight no one's gonna find us
We'll leave the world behind us
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And hope that deep inside you'll feel it too

Tonight our spirits will be climbing
To a sky filled up with diamonds
When I make love to you, tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And that midnight sun is gonna come shining through

Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do, is to get close to you, tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And soon this old world will seem brand new

Tonight we will both discover how friends turn into lovers
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And the midnight sun is gonna come shining through

Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do, is to get close to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you

Tonight

I've got a song

As I was looking trough the years from the struggles I have been, I find a quite moment of being sentimental and asserting myself to emptiness.


I Hate You Then I Love You (by CELINE DION)
(duet with Luciano Pavarotti)

I'd like to run away from you
But if I were to leave you I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me
And yet I'll never try
No matter what you do you drive me crazy

I'd rather be alone
But then I know my life would be so empty
As soon as you were gone
Impossible to live with you
For a whatever you do/for whatever you do

I never, never, never
Want to be with anyone but you
You make me sad, you make me die
You make me laugh, you make me cry/you make me long for you
You make me live, you make me die
You make me laugh, you make me cry/You make me cry for you
I hate you, then I love you, then I love you,
then I hate you
Then I love you more
For whatever you do

I never, never, never
To be in love with anyone but you
You tread me wrong, You tread me right
You let me be, you make me fight with you/
I could never live without you
You make me high, you bring me down
You set me free, you hold me bound to you

I hate you, then I love you, then I love you,
then I hate you, Then I love you more
For whatever you do/For whatever you do

I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you...but you


This is the song I got from trying on putting the earth’s round shape unto polygonal and from trying to become an optimistic one as I was being called pessimist.